Preparation: Week 2
The weather is pretty bad this week. Between weather and low energy, I missed my 50km goal last Sunday, I only got to 39.5km. I need to remember to eat breakfast before I head out, as well as snacking and drinking water along the way. That being said, this Sunday I’m going to push for 55km.
It is a little weird that I need to practice eating and drinking water while I walk. It makes such a big difference. I don’t know if there is any advice I’ve ignored in my life more than ”eat healthy, and exercise”. 12km every morning seems to require a lot of food in order to stay awake the rest of the day. School is done now, so with me no longer having to drive my niece to school I’m going to try for 18km in the morning and 12 – 18km in the evening so I have the daytime for the other projects I’m working on.
Learning new things is great. The endless options of ways, and things to learn online is pretty great. My ability to motivate myself to do things is not so great. It is getting better. But there is a long way to go. Considering it took me almost 39 years to not hate my face in pictures and I still hate the sound of my voice, I don expect self confidence or the ability to motivate myself “properly” to be a speedy process. I suppose self confidence isn’t the issue, I’m confident in my abilities. I’m also honest about my abilities and skill level. As long as I keep that up, I will continue to be pushed aside in favour of an overconfident, lying, moron (I’m not referring to any one person in particular, there are plenty. Every good worker experiences this). It feels like hard work has rarely ever paid off for anyone who works hard. I’m pretty sure there is research to back that up. I’ll check later so I have something to write about some other time.
Walking has given me a lot of time to think. It has also given me a lot of time to read, listen, observe, and educate myself in ways that I wouldn’t have otherwise. One thing that only becomes more and more obvious is that this world is designed for one type of person, and I am not the type of person society was designed for. In a lot of ways, it is better. In a lot of ways, it is worse.
That is why I’m walking. It is the one time I know with absolute certainty I’m not struggling to be me. I’ve got 7 sandwiches, a lot of water, and I’m about to start my 55km for the day. Wish me luck.